Did you see that poof of smoke that was in front of my classroom? It was me. I ran off with piles of papers left to grade and end of year checklists not checked off. I am done. I have never felt so drained at the end of the school year. My plans over this much needed break is spending a little bit of money (possibly on my latest obsession-balcony gardening) going to see the new Terminator movie and eating bbq at a friend's house. Have a great break!
These last couple of weeks seem to be moving very slow. I have tons of paperwork that I have to complete, several fun days that I have to go to and still have to maintain control of my class. I have brought home paperwork to fill out so that I will not be so behind. Today has been hard to get motivated to do anything though....the weather is rainy, cloudy and cool...perfect to fall asleep and pretend that I have nothing better to do with my time.
1. Taking a walk in the neighborhood is just one of the many reasons why I love where I live. 2. Thinking about my finances as I walked and I realize that I am stuck in between a rock and a hard place, I have two credit cards-one I am still current on paying on and the other in collections-I hate not paying bills and when I have called collections they offered wonderful solutions. They have said I should just get the money-10,000 dollars- from my family. Oh, if only you knew what a craptactular solution that is. I am going to call one of these debt solution places and hope to God they are not a scam. I am too po' to scam, I have nothing to take. 3. Sixty bucks out of my bank account will have to go to the two doctors that I have to see this month. I haven't even added in money for drugs-prescription not illegal. 4. I checked my bank account online today. Am I the only one that closes my eyes and peek at what my balance is? I pray that I am still in the black everytime. 5. This will be a long month and a long time until the next paycheck. 6. I am sure the plants I put outside are cussing me out. &*#@$ Full sun, my ass. I am apologize. It has rained for almost two weeks now. 7.What am I going to have for dinner? 8. I am hoping that the class will have an awakening now that we are introducing fourth grade material and realize that they really do need to pay attention and study, next year will not be a joke. Many of my academically strong students had a difficult time today, which I think is a good thing. If you don't pay attention, don't write in your notebook and don't study, then of course you are not going to understand the topic. 9. One of my students clearly has not been studying his times table. Despite the lectures, despite the work we have done all year, despite it all.....frustrated sigh here. 10. I just wish it was sunny.
This is a place where I can rant about my life as a third grade teacher who continues to try to get her act together years after graduating college.
It is hard to find teaching blogs where the writer is not all rainbows and unicorns. Teaching is hard work and at times the kids are not fun and you don't feel like anything inspiring is happening in the classroom. It isn't that I don't love teaching, I can't imagine not doing it but I can't handle blogs where the writer never writes about the frustrations of teaching...or of the small paychecks that one receives on a monthly basis.